Lip lined my lips with black eyeliner here and then filled them in with deep purple lipstick with a semi smokey eye. (my make up skills are really quite poor but I’m experimenting) (must buy make up brushes) (and better make up)
Been trying to experiment a bit with make up recently. This is smokey eye ft. glitter ft. small silver gems and red lips.
Literally don’t think I could feel more sad and alone if I tried.
I feel so lonely cos our house is super awks atm and I’m not doing anything tonight because I cba getting drunk as I’d actually like to be functional in work tomorrow. Dunno what to do. Feel like my best friend doesn’t want to chill for some reason and I could actually cry cos I’ve not had nothing to do in so long I feel really empty.
It’s 3am and I need to be up for work in 5 hours. Haven’t even drank tonight, only had a pint at the pub earlier even though everyone was on the vino cos I just couldn’t hack another awfully hungover day in work. I need to slow down with the vodka as my brain actually feels fuzzy the next day and I can’t piece together thoughts very well.
Literally feel like I’ve had no me time recently as I’ve pretty much spent all my time in work or partying, like on a non stop loop. I’m knackered. Can’t believe I’m actually considering getting a second job either, especially as lectures start again next week but I just want to have money and get myself out my overdraft.
Definitely need more sleep, more food and more time alone and sober.
I actually can’t wait to be done with uni and have a 9-5, 5 days a week job. Shift work is annoying and I want to be able to properly have weekend where I can be hungover without having to worry about work.
The fact I have a whole year left living in this hell hole of a house is a joke. We haven’t even started the academic year properly yet and there is full on drama left right and centre. Horrific drama. I’d leave if I could but I’m contracted.